Blogi aloitettu: 8.5.2007
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Ajatuksiani :| 8.5.2007 klo 22:32
A new day...
I open the shades in front of the window
I look out of the window and I can see the sun shining brightly
It's warm rays dance and flicker on my face like a flock of fairies
But I feel cold
I can feel a chilling grip of emptiness within me, I feel how it gnaws and chokes me on the inside
I feel so suffocated
What's wrong?
The day is beautiful and warm and I can see people both old and young having fun and playing with eachother, but I cannot feel happy for them, I just can't. My own grief is too great for that
What kind of life have I lived for the past five years? What have I achieved?
I don't know if I can answer that, but I do know for certain that I have lost and missed so much
Should I be pleased? I have a job, a place to stay and I have myself, but no one else...
When I was younger I used to think that my hope for love and care would never die, but today I'm not so sure anymore
I can no longer stand seeing how the rest of the world goes on without me, not even knowing that I exist
It's just another tiresome day in my everboring and depressing life, nothing more
I feel sleepy, exhausted
I close the shades...